Random vintage poem

So this isn’t really part of the 30/30 challenge but I found this old poem while searching for some paperwork and thought old share. Enjoy this vintage piece!!!

There’s a hallow space
between today and yesterday
an emptiness that’s hard to escape

I’d like to crawl beneath the blanket on my bed
pretend this was all in my head
but there’s nothing like knowing the truth
the moment you see it, it follows you

I’m trapped beneath the debris I used to call my life
fighting for a breath that only cuts like a knife
my feet don’t remember how to carry me away
so I let my mouth do the walking in its place

I speak of broken things
tell tales of swallowed dreams
lay down verbally
let reality have its way with me

Those moments, poem 10/30

Hey guys! So here is my poem poem for 30/10. I may post a few of the other 30/30 poems later but for now this one will have to do. Hope you enjoy!!!

Those Moments

Sometimes we have to do things we’d rather not,
pay money we’d rather save,
speak words we’d rather think
and vice versa

Often times we have to make difficult decisions,
that alter our lives permanently,
with no prior insight to whether the consequences
will be positive or negative

We all have these moments
that place our backs against life’s wall
where it gets a little harder to breathe,
and near impossible to see clearly

The optimists out there will tell you these moments are only here
to make you stronger and a better person in the long run,
they will spout clichés and quote dead poets’ words of wisdom…
In short, they’ll annoy the crap out of you.

Listen to them.
They either speak from a pure heart with good intentions and well meanings,
Or they’re speaking from experience because they’ve been there,
inside of the very moment you find yourself within

Maybe they just know.
Sometimes we have things we’d rather not do,
but we do them because life is unpredictable
and to survive we keep moving, keep breathing, keep doing.

Love and Art

It’s national poetry writing month! Whoo hoo! If you guys remember, last year I participated in this as well, basically every day for the month of april we’re supposed to write a poem. I may not post all of the ones that I write because my time lately is very limited (hence my absence). But I will try my hardest to share with you guys. okay, enough rambling, here’s the poem:

Love and Art

He is a poem with a pen in its hand
A canvas with a vision
A sculpture with wet clay caked beneath it’s fingertips

He has ink in his veins
Smells of drying paint and dreams
The roof of his mouth reads like Braille of lyrics he won’t share until they emulate perfection

He…is an artist
Which reads…he is complicated.

He lives for creation
Loves hard
Holds tight
Until he needs the holding

He is a flight risk at four a.m.
When most have long turned their faces to meet the cool side of the pillow he is a million miles away in a world of imagination

His mind is a stealthy mistress
Yet you’ll find pieces of yourself in everything he conceives
There will be traces of your smile in the corner edges of his artistry
You will hear your name played out in every melody he composes

There are some people who feel art,
The words of a poet become tangible
The strokes of a painters brush and a sketchers pen leave goose bumps rising across flesh
The swells and crashes of a musicians voice or instruments leaves lungs breathless

Those are the people that love the hardest
They love in the most honest sense because they feel it from a different angle than others
That’s why when he says it, that he loves you, you’ll know he means it
And it will be overwhelming and scary to be loved so wholly
Because love is an art form and he is an artist with a complex for perfectionism

But you, you’re one of those people too, the ones that feel everything 
And I reckon you’re just as complicated as he 

*side note: so this poem started off as one thing, I thought it was gonna be a simple love poem about one couple but as I was finding my words I realized that it’s not about one specific person but rather about a type of people. Artist are emotional beings (not all but most) and so I wanted to not limit the way an artist can love by a generic art form. Poets, painters, sculpters, singers, writers…we all have the ability to love so hard simply because we are more aware of emotions in order to use them for our art. At the same time it makes us difficult to love. Whoever is with us will inevitably become a part of our work and that can be trying on any soul. Anyways, I’m not sure if I’m even making the point I initially set out to make in explaining this poem, I may have only complicated things further but…oh well. I hope you enjoyed the poem! 

The Crush

I often steal glances at him, hoping to memorize the curl of his eyelashes and the contour of his face. He catches me tonight, and for the briefest of moments our eyes are locked and it happens, that cliché heart stutter and my breath escapes me as if an alarm has been triggered calling for evacuation.I feel the warmth of embarrassment wash over me as we both look away quickly. Once I find the courage to look up again he is gone.

The thing they don’t tell you about becoming an adult is that you still have the ability to feel every bit flustered and giddy and insecure around a guy/girl you like. Crushes don’t stop happening just because you’ve graduated, and for me at least, they never get any easier.

The next time he catches me peeking he makes a silly face then smiles. I return his smile and laugh, while my heart does that crazy thing hearts do. This time I look away first. 

Cruising!

So I went on a cruise last week and it was a ton of fun! Here’s a bit of what I did:

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My sis and I played bingo on the first night, there was a $300 dollar cash prize!

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You had to get an x on your card to win instead of the traditional diagonal and I was one away from winning…sooooo close!

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before we became bingo losers

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I still managed to get a bit of working out in since they had a full gym and an outdoor running track on the top deck. I had no idea how long the track was but figured it was .25 miles for one lap, turns out it was .43 miles around which means I did almost double the distance I thought!!!

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One of my favorite things about being on a cruise ship is that they make your bed for you. AND they leave cute little towel animals for you!

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when we reached our first destination, Belize, we went crystal cave tubing in the same caves that Mayans used for shelter… And human sacrifices. Def didn’t know that beforehand lol

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All through the caves were shimmering where we’d shine our lights. It was really beautiful! There were bats inside the caves as well (ew) but surprisingly I wasn’t bothered by that…the woman behind me on the other hand was quite torn up about it as she kept squealing and squirming about. It was really hard to get pictures inside though :(

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My sis sampling some of the desserts. Cruises are the devil when you are trying watch your sugar intake, I swear I ate so much sweet deliciousness!
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Our next stop was Cozumel. It was such beautiful weather despite the threat of rain. What did we do in Cozumel you ask?

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If you guessed snorkeling you guessed right! This was definitely an adventure as neither of us have ever been before. It was AMAZING! So beautiful underwater! And our instructor was so gorgeous, he was so patient and nice and…yeah I’d go back to Cozumel to snorkel with him in a heartbeat!!! Lol

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Such a fun adventure!

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Well that’s if for now, I’ll a gallery later on with more pics!!!!

December Challenge!

Okay guys, I am bringing to you my December Challenge that I will be participating in and I hope that you will all do your own or join me in mine. There are 31 days in December and I plan on planking EVERY SINGLE ONE of them. This is not about starting the new year off right, it’s about ending this one the healthy way. I will post a video EVERY SINGLE DAY for the month of December of me planking to hold myself accountable and I’d love to see what you guys are doing too! (Find the videos starting 12/01/12  here)

What do you want to challenge your body with before the year is over?

 

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Falling

Hey guys, well it’s been a while since I’ve posted a new original song but here I am finally producing new (ish) material. This is a song that I’d originally came up with the melody for on my keyboard while I was still in high school (in other words it’s ancient lol). It’s one of the ONLY songs that I remember from that time and I always play it on my keyboard or on any piano I can get my hands on and decided, why not add some strings to make it pretty. Well this is what I got from it, I hope you guys enjoy. I’m not sure if this is the final version as there is still so much more that I hear in my head to add but for now, I am happy with this sound. Let me know what you think, thank you for your patience with me and my rut this year. I am hoping that this is the beginning of much more music to come!

Make sure you let me know how you feel about this song in the comments below, click the like button and be sure to share! Tweet me @talichaj about it too! Thanks for listening guys!

I’m still here!

I’ve been in an artistic rut for pretty much 3/4 of this year. I’ve only had a few instances of finishing a decent poem and have only released one song since April. I hate that I’ve let myself fall into this space where I have so little to look back on and say ‘wow, I really put my heart into this year’. So I’m trying really hard to get back in the groove of things. I am almost finished with a song and I am constantly thinking of new poem ideas. So hang in there guys, new content is coming soon. I’ll probably set up a few posts featuring some other talented artists and things that I like really soon. Thanks for still coming by and checking out the site. I’m still here :)

 

For those of you who think you cannot endure your fitness goals…

You can.

I am so very excited to say that I have finally reached fitness goal number one of running for 3 miles non-stop! Pace was a bit slow still at 13 mins 14 secs per mile but I’m still happy!

Seriously though, in mid-August when I first began I never would have thought that I would actually make it this far. But I put in the work, kept at it, exceeded my own expectations and completed goals. In the beginning I couldn’t even do a quarter mile without walking somewhere in the middle and now I’m doing 3 whole miles with no walking or slowing down. It’s amazing what our bodies can do when we push them isn’t it? I’m still about three pounds away from where I wanted to be at the end of this month but I couldn’t care less. I’m so proud of my body for building up strength and endurance and even prouder of the mindset I have gained which is allowing me to not give up on these goals.

If I can do it, so can you. Set a goal. Give yourself time. And pace yourself. Don’t give up on yourself. That’s all it takes. I hope you are all out there making awesome progress! I will do a full stats update tomorrow for you guys…maybe I’ll even include a progress picture…maybe :)

What are your fitness/weight loss goals?